Ellisa's

I want, you. And only, you.

eyasmine — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 15:15:59 +0000

I want someone who would hold me by the hand and waist, just to cross the road.

I want someone who would kiss me every morning, just because so.

I want someone who would grab me by the waist from behind and surprise me with a warm hello.

I want someone who would fall asleep on the phone with me after talking for hours.

I want someone who would send me random texts on how much he misses me.

I want someone who would laugh at all my lame jokes.

I want someone who would hug me and whisper I love you to me.

I want someone who would love me for who I am, for what he is with me, for what I am with him, for what we are together.

I want someone who would love me, forever.

And here we go again.

eyasmine — Sun, 07 Feb 2010 13:08:48 +0000

Hi everyone. Here I am on wordpress. Surprised? Oh please don’t be so. I won’t be here for long anyway. I just want to express how I feel right now. And my wordpress is barely read by anyone at all. (i think)

After Nazif, relationships, and love are just words to me. Nothing less, nothing more. Until, he came along. We were together once. Well, twice actually and we’ve been good friends since then. He moved on. I moved on. But did our feelings ever moved on?

I myself, don’t know.

At first, i gotta admit, seeing him everyday wasn’t so easy. Plus the fact that we’ve been classmates for a year plus now. Things sailed smoothly until a month ago. When he confessed and there I was with my phone, speechless. Not knowing what to say. Not knowing what to do.

What was I to do?

He broke me into pieces, twice. And I forgave him, twice. And now?

What if it happens again?

I do not want to be broken into pieces again. I do not to be hurt again. I do not want to cry myself to bed again. I do not want to face him in pain again. I do not to fake a friendship with him again. I do not want to pretend that everything’s gonna be okay again. And most of all..

I do not want to lose him, again.

It hurt like hell. I don’t want to face pain in that way ever again.

But, maybe things could be different this time around. We would be different. Who knows? But the fact that to know the changes, I gotta take the chance, scares the hell out of me.

Love. Who knows what is it really all about?

-E

Protected: The truth.

eyasmine — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 09:07:14 +0000

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Release me

eyasmine — Tue, 25 Aug 2009 08:58:42 +0000

You ended things with three lines in a night and that night itself is when you wanted to refresh everything.

Every time you ask me the same question over and over again, I ask myself; do I deserve this? And the answer is no. I am at a state where I do not want to commit into any relationships at all. I love you. I really do. But I just can’t.

Who knew, with just a three lined text, this is how things are?

There is a reason for everything that happens, and I believe that there are many reasons for this.

We started as friends, why can’t we do that again?

Leo’s Fellowship Dinner ’09

eyasmine — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 03:32:22 +0000

I love my crazy kick-ass girlfriend!

Back in action

eyasmine — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 03:27:22 +0000

I’ve been neglecting wordpress for quite some time and I am sorry. I was too caught up with tumblr.

So anyway, updates!

Everything is simply 0-k-a-y. I’ve been missing school for almost two weeks now and I’ve been home, online stalking people i love and hate. It is fun and I can’t seem to stop. It is an addiction that one can’t stop, fo sho. Had some drama thing the other day, which ended beautifuly. Next time, look before you leap, okay? I am not being a bitch, but it is simply a fact. Pahal bodoh sangat pun tak tau. What a bugger I tell you.

So, puasa is just around the corner and I am excited for the Bazar Ramadhan eventhough I won’t be going to any of it. Dangerous lah sangat kan. Well, to my dad that is. I’ve got all my tailor-made kurungs and kebayas done. Now, I need my hair treatment and facial. Next month as usual.

After this update post. I won’t be treating wordpress as my daily blog anymore. Perhaps once in awhile I’ll update it on random things.

WordPress, please be nice or I’ll be deleting you soon

Goodbye stalkers. Have a nice day.

eyasmine — Wed, 29 Jul 2009 07:34:50 +0000

Everything is falling apart and I am loosing my head.

eyasmine — Thu, 23 Jul 2009 13:43:34 +0000

I SO HATE HOW I FEEL RIGHT NOW. BYE

eyasmine — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 14:46:33 +0000

You are a snake

OH!

You workers are one too!

Nostalgic, sikit.

eyasmine — Wed, 08 Jul 2009 15:17:15 +0000

I feel, entertained. Seeing you everyday my dear definitely brights up my dull, gloomy days. Your face is so fair like the legendary snow white and you move so gently. The way you eat, talk and yes laugh of course are all most adored by not just me but the same goes to my fellow friends. What will we ever do without you?

Sighs

HAHA, tak